I think my biggest insecurity is not being good enough- for myself, family, friends, even strangers. I guess I am a typical "first born" child in the ways that I am always wanting to please others but also want to be right and not be seen as less then perfect. I guess I think others and myself have high expectations of me and I want to do my best to meet those and please everyone. I don't want to fail. So sometimes I think if I don't care and if I don't try my best then myself/others won't have these expectations of me and I won't fail, I won't let myself or you down. Maybe that seems counterintuitive but somehow I make sense of it.
Such is life- always having something to work on!
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